sibling worries

Monday, January 21, 2008

sibling worries
My little boy is too rough and I can't be too close to him because he always does somersaults and rowdy horseplay and ends up kicking my tummy pretty often. he just won't settle down or understand that he has to be easy and gentile with me. I tell him to stop and he just keeps doing it. I put him in his room for a timeout, and he just does it again when I let him out!! I'm afraid he'll still be doing this while I'm actually HOLDING the baby! He's even STOMPED on my stomach a few days ago!! This behavior has been getting increasingly worse over the past couple months. I can't think of a single person we know who would ENJOY caring for my little monster while I'm in Labor. So, we're stuck. Either Jeremy will stay home with Tristan while I'm in the hospital, or Tristan will come with us! I visited a friend in the hospital who just had her little baby, and for the 2 hours or so that we were there, I realized how hard it will be to have him there while I'm in Labor. But not having Jeremy there will make it so emotionally hard for me. It's just that he is getting more and more disagreeable. I'm a very patient person, I believe, but lately this little boy has put me on the end of my rope almost every day. Is it just because I'm pregnant, or is he really the little stinker I see? I tell him to do something or not to do something and he doesn't or does it anyway. I hate that I have to put him in his room so often. I miss him and I feel guilty for secluding him. He doesn't just sit with me anymore, he has to be rolling or kicking or jumping next to me. I get hit in the tummy EVERY DAY. Sometimes it's actually so hard it makes me feel like throwing up. But mostly it's uncomfortable nudges and light kicks. I can't imagine how I would feel if he accidentally kicked her in the face or something while I'm holding her! I don't know how to make this better. I keep thinking "when Jeremy goes back to work, I'll have to deal with this behavior by myself!!" and I'm afraid, nervous, and unable to think of solutions! *sigh* I can only hope that it comes naturally to me. But If I can't control him now, before she's born, how can I hope to see a dramatic change in him after?